Lulu admits she “thought she was a bad person” as she battled with alcoholism. It comes after the Eurovision-winning singer recently broke down in tears as she confessed she “couldn’t say she was a great parent” to son Jordan. The Shout singer shares the 48-year-old with her second husband, celebrity hair stylist John Freida.
She was married to the 74-year-old between 1977 and 1991, having previously been wed to Bee Gees star Maurice Gibb. On Busted star Matt Willis’ On The Mend podcast Lulu recently opened up about her battles with alcoholism.
She says she hasn’t had a drink since November 3, 2013, admitting she later went on to learn that alcoholism is “an illness”. However before her revelation Lulu admits she struggled with her feelings towards herself.
She said: “I went into recovery, I learnt that it’s an illness, and I was so relieved because I thought I was a bad person. I had all this confused s**t in my head about who I should be.
“I started to understand, this is an illness and you can change it. I’ve mentioned before that I was a meditator and meditation, what it does, it helps you overcome a lot of issues in your life.
“I struggled with the fact that I’ve had a guru for 45 years, I’ve meditated, I’ve travelled to India, I’ve toured with were and I’ve followed an Eastern path, a spiritual path, but there were these characters in me that were because people wouldn’t like me if they knew who I really was.”
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On a podcast with psychotherapist Julia Samuel, Lulu recently addressed her relationship with her son. She revealed he “will not listen” to her interviews because they are “too painful”.
She said: "He will not listen to this, of course. It would be too painful, I should imagine, and anyway, he knows all this. He said, 'I won't be reading that book'. He said, 'I know it all anyway’.”
She continued: "We are closer and closer and closer because I've looked at my pain, and I want to big myself up and say he is impressed at the work I do, but he has told me, you know, he's..."
Julia interjected: "Proud of you?" before Lulu responded, "of the work that I've done?"
A clearly emotional Lulu continued: "I can't even find the words, but that's what makes me want to cry because he's very kind and forgiving of what I didn't give him."
She admits there are things she could have done differently throughout her life but says Jordan has “accepted it and moved on” and that the two are now “kind of on the same page”. She now wants to make “amends” and finds it “great” that she can be there for her grandchildren.
"He has forgiven me for all of the things...he's so magnanimous, but he's also very intelligent, and kindness and intelligence, I think, come together so he's kind," she added.
Jordan followed his mother into the entertainment industry playing Prince William in a made-for-TV film in 2002. However he later pivoted towards the restaurant business working for the likes of Gordon Ramsay.
In 2010 he opened his first Italian restaurant in Islington and now owns three successful venues. He married his wife, Alana Rice, in 2008, and they have two children together - a daughter named Isabella Rose and a son named Edward, known as Teddy.
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